being gay in this day and age i can honesty say is a blessing because not even 10 years ago when i was 19 and it just seem like a really taboo thing to do an gay marriage don't even think about it . but here at the end most of 2012 we have many states including my own Maryland where in November we will vote to uphold the Gay Marriage bill. an the way its going it will pass *fingers crossed* but the fact that we have gay theme days at places like six flags for one just say how the world is changing for us, of course there will always be people out there that will never change hell its people out there who still believe black people need to be slaves and woman shouldn't have the right to vote.
Thank God those people are few and far between but when we have shows out there like Rupauls Drag Race who show that its ok to be who you want to be and not what the world want you to be.for many years i was bisexual but i kept it to myself and just used porn and gay shows like Queer as Folk as a outlet because as i said 10 years ago the world wasn't as open about gays as it is now. even when i was married and my wife knew i liked guys i never acted on it till after we for divorced and not because (i like guys she cheated) but one say just couldn't hold it in any longer and i had sex with my then best and only gay male friend and it was one of the best feelings of my life and at that point i knew this was something i had been missing .
The funny thing is things about me finally started to come out that i was hiding i got a "switch " in my walk, my voice was always light and soft ( so that was already in place) not saying this happen to all gay guys but for me it did and after awhile i found myself ONLY attracted to males going to gay clubs getting my nails done and dressing gay/feminine and i wasn't doing it because i was gay i was doing it because it felt like this was the real me and i was no longer hiding "true self" from the world. i am always happen when famous people come out the closet (newest Anderson Cooper) because to me it shows they are normal people too and that they fight with the same things we all do. so in closing i just want to say i love that i am gay in this day in age because i can be who i truly am and it feels hella good!
