Homophobic Homos!!

i always like to start out by thinking my followers and all of you who take the time out of you busy lives to just read my Lil piece of the Internet. something has come across me that i would never see and that's homophobia but not from straight people but i mean right here in the gay community itself. an no its not closeted homos either its people that are out to there family's but for some people when it comes to hanging out in pubic or if they are in a relationship its not wanting to meet there lovers other gay friends. for the life of me i cant understand people that are like that, you do some much to come out to the world express who you are but shelter yourself away from your own kind. the only reason i can find for this is a form of self judgement within themselves and also peer pressure so to speak because a lot of gay people still stick to hetero ways or stereotypes for gays. as in you see two guys together who one is manly and one fem  in the straight world the fem is "the girl" and in the homo world he must be the bottom which can be wrong on SO many reasons 

But a lot of versatile or even bottoms feel like they don't want a fem guy to top them which makes no sense to me what so ever. i know it seems I'm getting a little off topic but no really all this runs hand and hand because some guys feel its shameful to have a fem guy top them an hints the not wanting to hang out with his friends and keep them to his self because he will feel like his friends will judge him and feel less then a man. did i miss the memo but what makes you a "man" is you having a penis it stops there period no matter how much anal sex you have as a bottom, dicks you suck and make up and or drag outfits you put on you still have a penis THAT is what makes you a man.

How I Became A Bottom !

i been asked this question a lot and i guess i will take my first entry of my blog to address this. but let me take you back a while in my life i used to have sex with females and when i stared to come more to grips with the fact that i liked guys too i came out into the gay world with a lot of gay stereotypes that because i was "manly" at the time i was a what i know know is called the "Top" the one who gives and for a short VERY short time i was a top i thought i would never be the bottom as in , "it would hurt" me would mess up my ass in some way! but i meet someone who was a expert on the subject who told me if you truly want it will not hurt you and of course at first i didn't believe a word of it . but one day out the blue i was laying down watching a movie and he just came alone and slowly pulled down my pants and to make a long story shirt i felt one of the most wonderful feelings in the world. ANAL SEX i just laid there and just took it all in ( no pun intended ) and from that day forward all the stereotypes and rumors was gone out of my head. 

An as the years went on i became more and more Erwie why i see and the person trying to get out for some many years not saying Erwyn was not me he was but it was someone down deep inside that needed to come out. overtime my light feminine ways started to come out  i needed to keep my nails done i got a lil switch in my walk and that all become a part of me not saying feminine guys only can be bottoms or tops but i feel everyone should just be and do what feels good to them and being a bottom feels good to me i can be myself and i love it! so people even in the gay community feel that if you all manly you have to be a Top or if you a girly you have to be a bottom and that's what keeps people from evolving in the world because they try to keep everyone in these "boxes" and "roles" and if its not the case you get a funny looks or looked down on? i will never know but thats for another time but this is why how i and why i became a bottom and not because i have to be because i WANT TO BE!